A river flows forward

As far as I can recall these words were spoken to me by a college friend in the summer of 1988. We were having a conversation about whether I should allow my ex-boyfriend another chance to be in my life. He wanted to come back and of course he was the love of my life and I wanted nothing more than to take him back with open arms. I had conveniently forgotten of the things he did to cause the end of our love affair. My friend who had just graduated from college simply said to me just remember a river flows forward not backward; you have already been there and seen that, move forward! I decided in my infinite wisdom that he did not know the true depth of our love, we were supposed to be together and I could not mess with fate by walking away from the very thing I had prayed for... We all know how this story ends right, I took him back and he broke my heart a second time. I could have saved myself the heartache by simply listening to that small but powerful piece of advice that was offered to me. How many times has this been the case in our lives? We know better but we don't do better or we shun the advice of others and follow our own misguided judgment and we end up making a bad situation worse. Life and the experiences that we learn should serve as a guide for our future. Nothing happens by accident or coincidence it is all part of a strategic plan so even before we take the wrong turn, our destiny lies before us waiting to unfold. So in theory I made the decision I was supposed to make to learn the lesson I was supposed to learn, crazy how life works that way. Just life as I see it!

How much do I want you to see about me....

Reading and writing are things that I am passionate about! I created a blog a couple of years ago but in my classic style I "went hard in the paint" for 5 seconds and then it fell to the wayside. Last night I was leisurely strolling through twitter when a hashtag caught my attention #31WriteNow so I began to click through the layers of the topic and I uncovered an opportunity that intrigued me. So here I am day one working on my 1st post and for the next 31 days come hell or high water I will make a post. I immediately became overwhelmed after I tweeted "I'm joining @luvvie for the blog challenge in August luvvie.me/31WriteNow#31WriteNow" I began with the self doubt and a million questions: I already have a million things on my plate how can I add one more? Will people judge me for what I write? 31 days is a lot and a lot of topics! I need to step up my technology game so that I can write a blog and schedule it to post? (then I look to the side of the blog and there is a  post setting that says schedule!!) Should I create a new blogspot specifically for this or get over myself and use the spot I already created? I will not go on because all of the questions could be my blog entries for the month. One of the main reasons that I do not blog consistently is because I begin to edit myself before I type/write/scribble one word. The title indicates that transparency is a bit of a concern. I have always felt that the more people know about you the more ammunition they have to use against you. That sounds incredibly paranoid and I want to delete the sentence and move on but I am going to move past the fear. This challenge will be an exercise of growth for me and hopefully by the end I will have overcome the fear that is holding me back from reaching for the stars!

...one day down 30 more to go!